Suicidal No More: Choosing to Live with Schizophrenia

It just sucks. I'm 25 and my sister's pregnant bec...

2010-03-17T15:09:27.990-04:00

It just sucks. I'm 25 and my sister's pregnant because she gets to have a baby because she's pretty much the poster child of mental stability.

I try and not think about it too much because suicidal no more, indeed. To me, it's just not worth taking a chance of going down that road again.

Jen...I found you again...my computer was out of c...

2010-03-13T19:04:02.829-05:00

Jen...I found you again...my computer was out of commission for a week...gosh...that was an awful scary thing to happen...have you found out what it is yet? I hope you get some relief...

Your post is wonderful. Thank you for sharing. I...

2010-03-12T22:41:46.017-05:00

Your post is wonderful. Thank you for sharing. It's both brave and positive. It's in no way arrogant - and it's something that everyone needs to stop and contemplate and be understanding of. I wish you all the best on your journey! :)

I think you had a panic attack. I get those about ...

2010-03-12T06:03:10.769-05:00

I think you had a panic attack. I get those about once a year. You probably don't think its a panic attack and I didn't either when the doctor told me, but I know it was now. I lost vision and was sweeting profusely. Anyways I just started a blog at dustindemoss.com you should check it out sometime.

I think this numb sensation story tells you just o...

2010-03-10T03:23:54.539-05:00

I think this numb sensation story tells you just one thing. To slow down. Saying that you don't have time for illness is very selfish, because it translates: I don't have time for my body to have rest.

Also I think you take too many pills.

Helena

Jen, I'm so sorry that happened to you. It sounds ...

2010-03-10T00:23:05.837-05:00

Jen, I'm so sorry that happened to you. It sounds like it was scary, but I am so glad you were not having a heart attack or a stroke or something like that. I hope it turns out that you are just fine. I certainly have heard of scary and unexplainable things happening to people where it ended up that no one really knew for sure what had caused it and the person turned out to be okay. Something

Wow Jen, I'm sorry you had to go through such a sc...

2010-03-09T19:30:51.100-05:00

Wow Jen, I'm sorry you had to go through such a scary experience. Definitely get the tests done and try not to worry. Worry and negativity will do nothing to help you. Yes, pay attention to your bodily signals, but don't ignore that you need to be extra good to yourself right now; try not to let yourself dwell on what might be wrong. It sounds so trite, but remember to spend a little

so glad to see you making progress day by day in f...

2010-02-26T22:51:49.911-05:00

so glad to see you making progress day by day in facing your mental health challenge

Great post Jen! I came upon your blog a few month...

2010-02-22T00:12:59.502-05:00

Great post Jen! I came upon your blog a few months after Jim left when you were so unhappy, but I was so impressed with your writing and your obvious intelligence that I started to stick around and encourage you to hang in there. Somehow I knew you would get to this point in your recovery. I'm so proud of you. You are such a vital and useful person. Keep it up!

Kate : )

I think you are incredibly brave. I suffer halluc...

2010-02-21T14:32:09.687-05:00

I think you are incredibly brave. I suffer hallucinations too when I am under stress, and I know it can be very hard to function when that happens.

It's great that you hold a job, even if it is part time and not as challenging as other jobs. But you're doing what you can, and that means everything. That is just as valid and important as someone who works as a big boss

I hear gratitude, not bragging, in your post. Your...

2010-02-19T21:57:43.201-05:00

I hear gratitude, not bragging, in your post. Your post, once again, is a glimmer of hope in my day. My son is still fighting the diagnosis. He left yesterday to hit the Appalachian trail. He is not taking his meds and is just 10 days out from a 10 day stay at the state hospital. I wonder if I will see him again. When I check in to your blog I try to remember that this is just part of the

This was such a godo post for all of us that live ...

2010-02-18T06:25:25.350-05:00

This was such a godo post for all of us that live with mental illness. I think it is so awesome that your therapist pointed out that you are thinking clearly now and to live in the moment and let tomorrow be whatever it is...we could all dwell on the negatives but just like you, I have chosen to see the positives. As your long distant friend, I am so proud of you and what you are doing! I am so

Thank you, Lil. I reread what I had written in tha...

2010-02-17T17:42:19.171-05:00

Thank you, Lil. I reread what I had written in that post, and thought it might sound a bit arrogant to people, as if I were bragging that I am making progress. But the intention was not to brag at all, but to acknowledge the reality of things. I am doing better right now. That is progress. My therapist pointed it out, but I was aware of it already. It might not last - this feeling "better&

A beautifully written, positively-charged post Jen...

2010-02-17T00:41:18.174-05:00

A beautifully written, positively-charged post Jennifer - it resonated with me. There are so many wonderful things in your life, and so many accomplishments - you are definitely "living near clearly". Thank you for sharing and for inspiring x

Hi Kate~ Thanks for stopping by; I haven't heard f...

2010-02-07T16:47:26.864-05:00

Hi Kate~
Thanks for stopping by; I haven't heard from you in a while! It is interesting that you had thought of writing an essay on this. It would be a subject that one could talk about at length, I think. I turned 35 recently, and that makes me think, you know, if I was going to have a child I would need to have things in place to do so soon. But it's not really in the cards. I

Hi Jen, Sorry I haven't been around for a while. ...

2010-02-06T23:29:22.478-05:00

Hi Jen,

Sorry I haven't been around for a while.

I was just talking about the question of schizophrenia and motherhood with my therapist on Wednesday. I had an idea about writing an essay on it called "The Choice" along with other essay ideas related to schizophrenia and I was going through those ideas briefly with her.

We both agreed that the

I just wanted to thank you for writing such a beau...

2010-02-03T22:56:55.110-05:00

I just wanted to thank you for writing such a beautiful blog. It really is what I need to read to educate myself on some of the things my sister experiences. My older sister, Daniela, is schizophrenic and deaf (which has made treatment harder), she is pretty much like a child at 39. I will get custody of her when my mother passes away but for now, I am co-guardian. You should be proud of your

Thank you so much for your kind comments, Seeking....

2010-01-27T16:18:24.853-05:00

Thank you so much for your kind comments, Seeking. I truly hope things work out for the best for your son. I have heard from several other people through this blog who were experiencing the same situation and did not know what to do. It is a difficult choice to decide to try to force someone into treatment, but I do believe it is sometimes the best thing that one can do for a person, to save

Thanks again. I wish so much my son would find you...

2010-01-20T00:30:23.527-05:00

Thanks again. I wish so much my son would find you. Your blog gave me the first ray of hope in regards to his illness. And to compare this to cancer or any other illness is very true. I am a recovering alcoholic. Fifteen years clean last December. If I get sloppy in my treatment, meetings, helping others, working the Steps, I suffer before I ever think of taking a drink. I will die a drunk but I

i've done a lot of research on schizophrenia. you ...

2010-01-19T07:52:58.216-05:00

i've done a lot of research on schizophrenia. you should look up the work of carl pffiefer and abram hoffer, both medical professionals who passed away. this research was done decades ago. there is the adrenochrome hypothesis of schizophrenia which posits that schizophrenics have a genetic tendency to produce abnormal amounts of adrenochrome in the body and when it enters into the neuro

You can do this! I know you can!

2010-01-16T18:46:32.885-05:00

You can do this! I know you can!

I believe you can do it. I think it's kind of a go...

2010-01-16T18:08:30.600-05:00

I believe you can do it. I think it's kind of a good thing that you told yourself this is going to be the last time. It makes it all that much more important. I hope you don't stress yourself out to much, though. I will pray for strength and guidance for you.
Hugs,
Amanda

Great post, the tips were on point and detailed so...

2010-01-14T09:20:26.998-05:00

Great post, the tips were on point and detailed so that everybody could identify and understand!

I hope you are able to complete your degree. And ...

2010-01-14T08:28:27.233-05:00

I hope you are able to complete your degree. And I hope the voices leave you alone so you can accomplish your goal.

Thanks for your comments. It's true, the "what if"...

2010-01-06T21:59:46.995-05:00

Thanks for your comments. It's true, the "what if" game is depressing and nothing but a pointless, downward spiral into regrets and despair. I am trying not to do so much of it right now.

Sparkations, thanks for the info and links you left; I've looked into them and it's interesting.

Onward and upward. I'm going back to school next week!