WTF is wrong with me? I just found the bottle lying on the floor. "Oh, maybe I should see what this is?" instead of stepping over it. Topomax. Oh Christ.
NO WONDER I AM SO FREAKIN' FAR INTO THE BELL JAR.
Alas, I was headed downhill some time ago. I don't remember the last time I took Topomax. I was lying on the floor earlier trying to recall it. See I have this old featherbed that needs to go in the trash, but I've taken to lying on top of it on my floor. See that's how stellar things are going right now, okay? It's really looking UP.
So I was lying on the floor asking myself, "when did I stop taking Topomax?"
I have no clue.
I guess if I really cared, I would count out the pills to see how many extra are in there. But I don't really care. That is the crux of el problemo. Topomax is my MOOD STABILIZER. I was thinking, "Gee I need to tell the doctor to increase that Topomax dose tomorrow, because it sure doesn't work." And then I realized. I have not even BEEN TAKING IT. AT ALL.
I have had more problems losing me meds in the past year than I ever have before. It is because there so many of them. I take every pill that exists except for stuff like Viagra. I take so many medications I am an incorporated pharmacy known as Jengreens. That is why all pharmacists know my name. Surely, this is not a good sign. But neither is forgetting to take the stuff. Surely, THAT didn't help.
I don't know what to do with myself.