Wednesday, January 09, 2013

Damn, I did it again!

Dammit. I just realized, lo and behold, while I've been wallowing in my misery, I FORGOT TO TAKE TOPOMAX FOR WEEKS. Again.

WTF is wrong with me? I just found the bottle lying on the floor. "Oh, maybe I should see what this is?" instead of stepping over it. Topomax. Oh Christ.


Alas, I was headed downhill some time ago. I don't remember the last time I took Topomax. I was lying on the floor earlier trying to recall it. See I have this old featherbed that needs to go in the trash, but I've taken to lying on top of it on my floor. See that's how stellar things are going right now, okay? It's really looking UP.

So I was lying on the floor asking myself, "when did I stop taking Topomax?"

I have no clue.

I guess if I really cared, I would count out the pills to see how many extra are in there. But I don't really care. That is the crux of el problemo. Topomax is my MOOD STABILIZER. I was thinking, "Gee I need to tell the doctor to increase that Topomax dose tomorrow, because it sure doesn't work." And then I realized. I have not even BEEN TAKING IT. AT ALL.

I have had more problems losing me meds in the past year than I ever have before. It is because there so many of them. I take every pill that exists except for stuff like Viagra. I take so many medications I am an incorporated pharmacy known as Jengreens. That is why all pharmacists know my name. Surely, this is not a good sign. But neither is forgetting to take the stuff. Surely, THAT didn't help.

I don't know what to do with myself.



  1. Sounds like you're just going to get back on the horse. That's what you're going to do with yourself. :)

    Breakfast After 10

  2. Hi Jen,

    Glad you recognized what the problem is. Hope things turn around with your mood ASAP... Lately, I've been struggling with taking my medication. Hopefully I'll be a po at end by the end of the season.

    P.S. Thank you again for the "I Choose to Live Award" when you awarded me I was going through something, and I finally posted on my blog. Thank you!

  3. At least you are handling it now; that is all you can do. When I ran a neuro practice I often had depressed or anxious patients told me they forgot one of their meds for long periods. The seemed honestly shocked that it did not even occur to them. You aren't alone in this.

  4. I agree with LuLu - sounds like your on your way to feeling better.

  5. It's good that you found the bottle and got back into taking the med. Hopefully you'll have a little more relief soon!
    Adventures in Anxiety Land

  6. I bet that can be frustrating, but don't give up. You can do it. One day at a time. :) One thing we do for my brother is his phone and my mom's phone are set with alarms to go off when he's suppose to take his meds. It helps all of us to remember.


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