So, the thoughts are still a problem. The thoughts are there and often there when I'm nauseated or vomiting. But I don't think the thoughts are the entire problem, I mean as far as the physical issue goes. I used to take a medication for acid reflux and stopped taking it a long time ago because I am on so many medications that it scares me to take things if I don't know that I definitely need them, but perhaps I should try going back on that medication. It's called Omeprazole. In fact I just took it tonight because I thought I would give this a shot before I resort to asking for another psychiatric drug.
But I did think about Mary's suggestion of asking for a different drug rather than a new drug. It is just that it has taken a while to get to this regimen I'm on now which, aside from the obsessive thoughts, is pretty effective.
I know that the obsessive thoughts must be addressed regardless of whether or not they are making me physically sick, because they cause me a lot of ridiculous mental stress. The thoughts are about all sorts of gross things, and generally the same things repeatedly, and the problem is that I don't have an effective method for ridding myself of them. I do know that when I took Prozac I thought it helped with my obsessive thoughts. But do I want to go on another drug? Not really.
This is what I'm taking right now:
Risperdal Consta (injections) (highest dose it comes in)
Clonazepam (low dose)
Vistaril (for sleep)
Wellbutrin *450 mgs (high dose)
Then I also take two thyroid medications for hypothyroidism, a medication for lack of saliva and dry eyes caused by Sjogren's Syndrome, a medication that's a muscle relaxer for my Fibromyalgia, and sometimes Naproxen for joint and muscle pain, and right now (temporarily) an antibiotic (I honestly do not understand why I am on this), and an antifungal drug which is necessary because of the antibiotic, and 50,000 mgs once a week of Vitamin D because my blood levels of that were so low (this is like an entire bottle of the over the counter Vitamin D). And I take a large dose of Melatonin every night because it's the only way I can sleep.
And now, perhaps, I'll be back on Omeprazole.
I think that's enough drugs for one fatty, overwhelmed liver to handle.
My goal is actually to get off Risperdal, and I am still hoping that will be possible, because I attribute most of my weight gain to Risperdal and Seroquel. I finally got off the Seroquel last year, which is why I never have a decent night of sleep anymore to this day, and I still didn't manage to lose any weight after that honestly. I didn't gain weight, but I didn't lose it either. (I need to put a lot more effort into this I'm sure). And I'm pre-diabetic. So I cannot afford to be overweight. All my doctors have told me that losing weight would be helpful and I just can't stand the thought of being on these Risperdal shots anymore when I gained literally 100 pounds on them. That is a lot of weight. And I don't know how to even describe to you how difficult that's been to deal with, mentally. So my psychiatrist seems to think I'm on too many medications, and I agree. And the first one I think should go is Risperdal.
I don't know what can be done about the obsessive thoughts because I don't want to change the other things I'm on right now since I don't want to lose the stability I have with those meds. I've been thinking that perhaps therapy could help me with the obsessive thoughts if I found someone who really understands them and knows how to address them and accepts my government insurance. Not sure I really believe this would work though.