Friday, June 04, 2010

Blog award for people who choose to live and combat suicidal urges

I have created a blog award to give to bloggers who have lived through, or continue to live through, periods of suicidal urges, due to any mental illness, addiction, eating disorder, or other problem. This award is meant to send a message to all of the readers of blogs who post it, to say that a person can actively choose to participate in her own recovery and make the choice to fight for her/his life. When suicide might seem like the easiest choice, or the necessary choice, it takes work to stay alive and battle mental illness. It takes work to live with suicidal urges and to live with mental disorders. And, recovery does happen for many of us; things do get better. Maybe we still live with the illness, maybe we will live with it all of our lives, but we can learn to cope with it, rather than succumb to suicidal thoughts and self-destructive behaviors.

Hopefully, seeing this award will offer a ray of hope and sunshine to those who feel hopeless and lost, just as we have ourselves. To have hope is to have everything.

If you write a blog, and would like to recommend yourself for this award, all you need to do is shoot me an email and your blog address, and I will be glad to give it to you, and to list your blog on the award page, which you can see above this post at the top of the page. The same goes for blogs you read; if you would like to recommend someone else's blog for this award, just email me the address to the blog, at I hope that this statement, "I choose to live", can become, not only a little blog award, but a common, proactive, important statement, that we have hope, and that others can hold on because death is final, and we all deserve a chance to live.
Congratulations to Kate Kiernan, the first award recipient!


  1. Thank you so much Jen!! I've put the award on my blog with a link back to your blog. I appreciate you, too! You have come so far in a relatively short time and I am proud to know you. Thanks too for thinking up this award. May it inspire others as it inspires me.

    Stay Well,


  2. Thank-you Jen for the award!! I am very honored and happy to know another person with schizoaffective disorder!! I don't know many either, so it's great to find you. Thanks again. I'll be adding the icon and linking back to you immediately. :)

  3. Kate - you were one of the first readers of this blog to ever leave a comment, hence, of course I like you! Just kidding. I am glad we have gotten to know each other over the past couple years, and I think your blog is one that deserves recognition.

    Handsome B. Wonderful - No problem! I actually came across your blog some time several months ago, and I don't know if I left many comments, but I definitely enjoy your writing and it's great to at least know one or two folks who have Schizoaffective Disorder.

  4. I would just like to thank you for your blog. Its comforting to hear how I feel about life put into words by someone else. I don't hear voices but I am always bad and others show me by their words, actions and facial expression how much they dislike me. Its always like that. I look at everything for the negative vibes about me. I take risperdal and zoloft. They help but don't completely solve the problems. I isolate myself and then feel lonely. But can't change it.

  5. Hdiannes:
    Therapy helped me tremendously over the past three years to feel more comfortable in my own skin, to recognize reality when my perceptual problems confused me and made me unsure of what was real, and to understand that people weren't always talking about me when I thought they were. I recommend therapy and support groups in addition to medication as helpful treatment for people with any kind of psychiatric illness, really. I hope you have someone in your life you can talk with to help you sort out your thoughts.


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