a small update on things in general

I am irritable. I blame this, partially, on Risperdal, only because I started feeling irritable directly after I started back on that medication. I do not remember if it had this effect when I took it before (a couple years ago), or not, but it seems to have this effect now. I find myself getting frequently annoyed with most of the human race, and this is not normal for me. I am not irritable all the time, but some of the time. And it's not a severe problem.

I have wondered recently if I might by hypomanic right now. I have this constant desire to go shopping lately, which is not the way I am much of the time. But, like being irritable, it's also not a big issue or problem, so I am not really worried about it. I don't get flat-out manic ever, although some years back I did, just not anymore since then.

Otherwise, I am still going to work everyday and fulfilling obligations, despite the fact that I have the same old symptoms much of the time. They're manageable, mostly, and it's not nearly as bad as it could be if they weren't, but I do hope there will be a day in the future when I am completely, totally devoid of psychosis. I don't know when that day will be, or if it will ever be. I just hope it will.

Four be the things I'd have been better without:
Love, curiosity, freckles and doubt.
-Dorothy Parker