Tuesday, November 25, 2008

thank you, universe

I do not want this to sound like an Alannis Morisette (ie, "Thank you, India) song, but I was starting to get lonely and depressed, so I thought, better to write something positive and not depressing, with Thanksgiving coming and all. It's not a holiday I really like simce the history of the United States is not usually accurately respresented in the celebration of "Turkey Day", but there is something to be said for the act of giving thanks.

So here I go:

I am thankful for the invention of antipsychotic medication.

I am thankful for my case manager, who literally came to my apartment and helped me pick up trash and throw it out - several times, and who now thinks I am a "success story" because I finally got the place clean.

I am thankful for the internet, through which I have made friends when I would have otherwise been alone and without people to talk to, and through which information can be both located and sent out into the world to help people understand things which they might have otherwise never learned about.

I am thankful for Spooky, my feline baby, who is always friendly, sweet, and loving, and who is also the most beautiful cat in the world - according to her.

I am thankful for insight.

I am thankful for my car, which has gotten me around pretty well for the past year and a half. I have lived for years without a car, in the past, and that experience allows me to fully appreciate the value of reliable transportation.

I am thankful for poetry.

I am thankful for the universe in which I live, which has survived and changed throughout millions of years and the earth in it, which has survived despite everything human beings have done to destroy her.

I am thankful for my family. I have a mother who came to visit me in hospitals and odd living situations, and a father who I did not see for years but who I now visit on most holidays, siblings, a sister-in-law who are smart and funny, as well as a bunch of relatives in another state.

I am thankful for my therapist, who has listened and given me advice every week for the past two years, and helped me to learn new ways of coping with problems and understanding myself, and who reminds me I do not need a college degree in order to accept myself.

I am thankful for my old relationship which ended last January, with my boyfriend who I lived with, because I learned through that situation what I do and do not want in any future relationships I may have.

I am thankful for daisies.

I am thankful for books, bookstores, and libraries.

I am thankful for my clean apartment, which looks lovely now in comparison to how it looked in the past, and has been the first apartment of my own that I have lived in for two years.

I am thankful for music.

I am thankful for the election of a Democrat for President.

I am thankful for progress, and for the activists who work to create it every day.

I am thankful for the friends I do have now or have had in the past.

I am thankful for professors who encouraged me to write, pursue a degree, and believe in myself.

I am thankful for my job, which gives me money to survive and is not too stressful.

I am thankful for you, for reading this blog.

1 comment:

  1. Your words are beautiful and filled with hope and appreciation.

    Thank you for sharing this


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