Friday, August 05, 2005

still alive......

okay, to pick this back up.......

i was going to shoot myself....i was stopped by police and have been in "treatment" *that word carries a huge variety of definitions, every since.

People are lovely and fascinating everywhere, but my life is a pile of garbage now, and basically.......

If I don't escape from here soon (which would be, honestly, easy to do), or find a way to commit suicide in here, or wait until I get out of here which would then make it almost inevitable, hopefully the drugs the doctor here is tarnishing my brain with will be changed because right now I can't see too many reasons to stay on this planet with the downward spiral that has come to define my life.

I have no internet access and that's about all I have to say until some other point in time.

6 comments:

  1. You know, I have never really liked blogs. And this stupid thing I created is perhaps one of the most ridiculous and self-indulgent, self-pitying, pathethic pieces of crap I've ever created in this lifetime.

    So I don't know that I'll be back here again.

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  2. also, don't make the mistake, if a doctor informs you that you have Schizophrenia, of telling people tht you have it, and expecting them to remember who you are.

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  3. Just out of morbid curiosity, what caliber gun were you going to use?

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  4. A short while back I thought I was going to die due to heart problems. That is now under control but I learned from the experience that where there is life there is hope and that life is a precious thing that should be cherished. I hope you find the help there that you need and that your life improves to the point that you see the joy that being here can bring you.

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  5. Nightmare:

    the caliber was a .357 magnum, with .357 bullets, of a type called Glaser Safety Slugs that explode upon impact into a "target"...

    Just answering out of morbid reasons.

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